Steps To That: A Key - 08/29/24

I believe that the soul piercing pure pain that I have interpreted as depression, maybe even suicidality, is the key to my enlightenment.

I believe that all that separates me from enlightenment was that I misinterpreted that pain.

My intuition also told me something else:

It told me that when I announced this,

The matrix will tell me to stop.

My thought process working up to this:

The game is simple.

If: Enlightenment is here the whole time–and I don’t feel enlightened,

Then: There is something I am misinterpreting that is causing a distortion.

I have watched the present experience.

I have identified that pure pain is something that I have avoided.
That I identified as a negative.


I think the matrix pulled a big trick on me,
And is scared of me undoing that trick.