Steps To That - Inner Work - 08/27/24

Yesterday while I was looking past my own reflection, while I was looking on the other side of the mirror, taking the master’s advice, 

I spent time recognizing that I withheld love from myself, that I withheld the same acknowledgment and devotion and praise I give freely to others, for the sake of what, because I would be judged by other for offering that to myself?

And yet I have compensated for my withholding with narcissism. 

Tonight I did similar work. 

I had been casting something like a circle of white light in the city at first for some time. 

Later, I placed “I forgive you’s” drawn in white light in places in my body for a time. 

I then brought more of the world into my awareness, more of my memories, and I began to look at the places I feared, the places that hurt me, my enemies. 

I looked at the government, the CIA, the potential threats to my freedom, the church, yes. I placed these “I forgive you’s” imprinted in white light all amongst them. 

I added “I bless you’s” in equal number. Searching my memories, the organizations and groups that I feel had wronged me or that were fundamentally full of that toxic and vile wickedness that infects the heart with pain and black thorns, into them I injected these blessings, 

I continued until there was nothing left but white light in the world, 

a sphere of white light with lingering catacombs of black webbed structure on the exterior.